Nothing .... Not one thing..... It was official. It for the first time had become the sad reality of my life. He is gone. There would be no more large laughs, horse bites, jokes, and more importantly no more time to spend with him. Christmas with my whole family is such a big deal to everyone; well everyone but me. BUT, this year, Christmas with the whole family meant much more than I think I could ever express. No, this was not a "fun" Christmas, or even a "good" Christmas, but it was a Christmas. The celebration of Christ's birth. Thank God that's what it's all about.
I am sad. I am sure he isn't, and that's what gives me comfort.