Saturday, November 04, 2006

Erwin McManus

I am reading two books at once, and man they are torquing my paradigm. "Stand Against the Wind" by Erwin McManus is turning out to be a really good book. now it is small and only a few pages, but each page gives you something to chew on. This makes it a long drawn out experience, but a good one none the less.

"So many of us have abdicated our passions for obligations as if passion is a luxury for the young and we all must grow up one day."

That is deep, and a little bit convicting to me. cheers, please pray for Ted Haggard, he is a sweet man and is in need of our prayers!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

politics politics politics

So election day is coming, and I am so sick of these commercials. Hollywood should not influence us on whom to vote. I really feel like that is completely unethical. I mean it didn't work for the dixie chicks. They have had to cancel tons of shows. I don't think it is good on either side of the isle. Carol Keeton-Rylander is an idiot, who has grandiose plans without a way to fund them. Kinky tries to play the "anti-Politician" but I have met and talked to him, and he is nothing but a politician tot eh core. I just feel like any politician that runs negative campaigns mean that they cant' stand on their own merits.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Life is sometimes

So, I have had a few new things in my life, one of them like i am single, but I am not sure that it is forever.

This is what I know, Jesus is awesome, and I definitely want Him more in my life! I know that left to my own demises I will always be my own worst enemy! I am the one who causes the problems in my life! God is working though, and I know that God is in my and all around me and because I know that, GOD is rocking my world! I love God and Iknow that He loves me because He says so in His Word! Be blessed I will update you on my progress, but please continue to pray for me, my friend are the best in the world!

Thursday, September 14, 2006

Hey you...why so mean

That is what I have been saying to myself in the mirror. I have become the person I don't like. I am at least acknowleding it, so I feel like I am at least working on it. Or that is better said, God is working on it. I just get inraged, which is a sign of my spirit not being in control, but the flesh! EEk, it is so unattractive!

God, help me, be like is You: gentle, kind, and understanding.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

I have a hangover....

Not from alcohol but from Telethon. Oh, my I am tired, and pretty much exhausted. I have been coming home and taking naps! I don't EVER take naps! But on the on the hand telethon was up this year, ao that looks good for me! I could not have done without God, I mean I like to sleep, and telethon does not allow that! Late Monday I was working on PURE adrenaline (or however you spell it)!

Friday, September 01, 2006

so this is the big weekend....

So, this year weekend will be the 41st annual Jerry Lewis Labor Day Telethon. I am the staff rep in charge of the whole shindig. It is going to be fun, and I am sure stressful, but more fun. I love my job, I love helping others, and I get paid for it. I am pretty sure there is no better job!

Monday, August 21, 2006

Wow, I can't BELIEVE I did that....

So, I went to Garden City Kansas this past weekend. It was awesome. I went with 11 even other people from the church, and we ministered to the people there. I was part of the Presbytery team that was honored to give God's prophetic vision for GC. I'm sure Tha every time  I minister I am humbled. God come sin such power. It is awesome. I am tired now, and being attacked. PLEASE pray for me. I am sure I need it!

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Stress Stinks Arrid is not working

So I am ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY STRESSED!!!!!!! Telethon is 17 days away, and I am NOT ready. I mean usually I can whip something up that is presentable, BUT this is going into millions of homes. IT MATTERS! I don't have everything under control, and I am sure I am not going to. PLEASE help, please.....I will buy you a pizza!

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Much to BLOG about nothing...

So I am out of witty saying and my life is way less dramatic than any news story in America. I love America, and I love George Bush.....beat that.

Oh, I do have something to say...Bill Mahar is not a nice guy. He is the reason demon-rats have a bad press.

Monday, August 07, 2006

well... isn't that special.....

Welcome to Monday, eeek! I am so exhausted, wow, what a week last week was. I was in three states, it was crazy, but fun. It makes me tired, and I am pooped. It is okay, the telethon is just around the corner, and then I really won't get to sleep then. BY the way, if you are reading this and you ant to volunteer for the telethon, email me at and I will set you up to be telethon volunteer!!!

Sunday, August 06, 2006

On the lighter side....

So I decided I don't work hard enough in my job. I decided this weekend I would work for the Buckle and be a sales associate. Stupid idea, because I traveled all last week, and I am pretty sure I am more exhausted than I have ever been in my entire existence from birth to now.

Other than that I was in Albuquerque and Colorado Springs all last week. It was a blast, but it was very very exhausting. I learned a lot about what I do for a living and that makes it awesome!

Friday, July 28, 2006

Huh, A Success Story.....huh I never saw that coming

So I have run into a lot of people from my BC days. I think it is so funny when I tell them I am into God and am a Christian.... I mean if you knew me before I was saved, then you know what I am talking about. I was not nice, didn't care, and acted like I knew everything. I mocked God and acted like I was a god. Thinking about that time in my life is crazy...I have changed so much. Then there are those areas that are still the same...EEK I am definitely a work is progress and will be until I die. That is what I like about Christianity....God doesn't expect us to be perfect... He knows we are going to blow it sometimes....He is so gracious to forgive and importantly, forgets.

Then I run it people who think it is crazy to be a Christian and think that all it means is you can't do anything. That is silly, God doesn't require you to drop everything and BE A perfect person....because that is never going to happen. When you become a Christian, at least for me, let things that you did before you were saved was easy because now my focus changed, and my intentions and thoughts were different. Actually, my desires in life were different.

-just some thoughts to ponder

-be Diligent


Thursday, July 27, 2006

I can't believe it

So I have been thinking, about all that is going on in the world. It is so crazy to me that one little tiny country could be such a pool of hatred for so many. Israel is such a hotbed for controversy, and I often times wonder why it is so crazy. In fact, I often wonder why God is allowing such a crazy unsafe and completely violent country for His chosen people.
I mean the Jews catch so much flack, and for what?
What have the Jews done that is so horrible?
What have to Jews done that they deserve this harsh, bitter, and angriness around them?
I mean they have, in my opinion, been robbed of their land, and then when they get it back, the world gripes because the took it from the Muslims. I don't get it. I don't understand how someone could hate someone so bad that they are so mean just to jab them in the side constantly.
Then there is the fact that the Jews have been MORE than accommodating. They were forced out of the West Bank by their own country. I think it is a little ironic that not even 4 months after Ariel Sharon had the Jews move out of the West Bank, he suffered a horrendous stroke. I am not saying God made him have a stroke, but He had to allow it. Nothing happens that doesn't go through the hand of God. God also warns, in the Bible about respecting the Jews, and causing harm to them could cause harm to you. I don't know.

I am just an American, Christian, from Amarillo Texas with a point-of-view. We really need to watch out for this. I believe this is a huge indication that Jesus' return is not very far from now!

I mean the signs are everywhere. There are wars and rumors of war. The gross darkness is taken over the people. There are more natural disasters happening. It just seems like God is trying to get our attention. Are you listening?

-Be diligent

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

So I am happy to report

I love my life. I am happier now that I have ever been. My relationships are going great, and I am growing in God more and more with each passing day. It is times like these that make me feel like I really have the ability to so anything I want. I feel like I have the strength and courage to do everything.

I was listening to Ani Difranco, who is not known for her moral center, but there was a lyric in a song that really struck me to the core. Does that ever happen to you? It said: "I just want to walk through my life unarmed."

I think I need a little more of that. I need to not feel like I need to walk in this way. I want to not feel like I have to have all the answers or even defend myself. Why is that my job, I mean I don't really have the ability to do that. I really believe that is what God is showing me. I think it is His job to defend me, prove my innocence. I just want to be unarmed, and full of grace and love. I want to cover them, and I want people to know I have nothing but acceptance for them! That does not necessarily mean I accept their sin or problems, but I accept them!

Glad I go that off my chest!

as my friend Remoy always says and it resonates with me

-Be Diligent


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