Shootings

It rang in my ears early this morning.  Another school shooting, 5 dead and the shooter made six.  It breaks the souls and brings tears to the eyes.  Tonight the landscape of 5 families will forever be changed.  I am sure agony is ensuing them as well.  The dinner table will be less one person.  I am sure there will be second guessing, and thought of the last conversations, and the field of shoulda, coulda, woulda's.  I hope they cling to some resemblance of peace.  I can't imagine, and I hope I never can.  

Why?  Why?  Why?  I am sure that's being asked by many, and while that is a relevant question, I think sometimes even if we know the why's we would have just another why.  I feel like knowing wouldn't help us comprehend, but further question the reasons.  I can't imagine the parents of the shooter.  I can't imagine how they feel.  The little boy they raised from birth, turned into this one man killing monster.  I am sure the family is going through the worst grief and thoughts of, what could we have done.  

The power of prayer at this time.  While it seems like everyone needs more than that, the truth is, prayer sustains us in these times.  

I have already started my mourning process.  I have turned on Joni, as I do when things like this happen.  I am totally broken hearted.  I love Joni, she changes the way I feel.  I want to leave you with some lyrics.....

BOTH SIDES NOW

Rows and flows of angel hair

And ice cream castles in the air

And feather canyons everywhere

I've looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun

They rain and snow on everyone

So many things I would have done

But clouds got in my way

I've looked at clouds from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

It's cloud illusions I recall

I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels

The dizzy dancing way you feel

As ev'ry fairy tale comes real

I've looked at love that way

But now it's just another show

You leave 'em laughing when you go

And if you care, don't let them know

Don't give yourself away

I've looked at love from both sides now

From give and take, and still somehow

It's love's illusions I recall

I really don't know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud

To say "I love you" right out loud

Dreams and schemes and circus crowds

I've looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange

They shake their heads, they say I've changed

Well something's lost, but something's gained

In living every day

I've looked at life from both sides now

From win and lose and still somehow

It's life's illusions I recall

I really don't know life at all

I've looked at life from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow

It's life's illusions I recall

I really don't know life at all

Vaya Con Dios!

-broc